Kuantanamera

First and foremost, I've lost my phone for good[For the first time I reckon].

However good news is I still have my SIM card (oh yipee.) hence, all you important-people-in-my life need to do now is sms or email or msn me your name/number. If you choose to put it on this tagboard also can la, though it may prove to be unwanted advertising.

Kuantan trip this round was the best I'd ever had!! :D Those taking care of us were sooooo hospitable that I feel that I've accumilated 4 more sets of parents. Plus, the shittiest food you can find in Kuantan is probably still nicer than the exhorbitantly priced ones you get at our food courts.

Apart from the fact that the stupid people from the bus company were so bloody cheapskate and dishonest as to steal my phone, I love Kuantan. ARgh. Stupid person who stole my phone. Ok I admit it was my fault for leaving it in my hand and it was my fault that I didn't pee earlier and hence rushed off the bus without first checking if I had left anything behind. But I've met taxi drivers and security guards who so nicely return the phone to me when I leave it behind in Singapore. Gah. Hope that fella's hand drops off and he pokes his eye with his toe.

Disappear from the face of this Earth.

Wouldn't that be something?

But this is a DEFINITE Must watch!!!

Bahhh!

The lyrics in the song below are the selfish words I'm belting out. I'd be lying if I say I totally don't give a damn to the comments of others, especially towards my appearance. It's bloody frustrating and demoralising when every single person you meet whom you haven't met in a long time starts the meeting with 'Ah you've grown fatter!' or 'You seem bigger' or 'you've put on weight' or 'maybe it's because you're big sized'. Talking about someone's weight gain is a downright no-no to me, it's like commiting a mortal sin towards the person. How'd you like it if I came up to you and said your nose grew exceptionally large and out of proportion and is now sticking out of your face like the empire state building? How'd you like it if I came up to you adn said you have a belly so dense that a mobile phone would get lost in the abyss if it went in? How bout how short you are that everyone has to look over your head and that even a 6 year old would beat you to holding the overhead handrail on a bus. Or that your so shapeless and flat like a 'credit card' (quote Barbarella Chantelle Bill) you are? Say I'm fat once I may forgive you considering that it maybe 'instinctive' to do so. But repeat it and I'll never talk to you again.

Picking on a person's appearance is as shallow as puddle of water. Fine that maybe the first thing people observe considering that visual input is the first to be analysed, but can't you control your tongue before blabbering off like a insensitive cow? Don't worry, my 'you's do not refer to anyone in particular, it's just my repressed self coming at every single person (although I cannot remember all the people) who said I've become fat/fatter/bigger/larger/whatever. Since I weigh in like an elephant I might as well have it's memory and remember the people who have very politely overlooked the extra kilos I've piled on and the strangers/family members who so randomly and encouragingly say I'm cute. Compliments can do wonders for people did you know that? I'm not much of a complimenter and hence can't tell people what they should say, but I'm aware of what it can do and am trying to compliment people more.

they say people who think their fat stay unhealthy and fat. Then tell everyone telling me I'm fat to stop making me think/know so and I'll stop wallowing in self-hate. I tell myself now, it's now getting past the initial stage of drastic weight gain, re-meeting old friends, family members(whom I will see in 2 weeks time and can be very sure that my appearance will be mentioned by all 5+ people in the household)

Argh!!

Yes if you can't tell, apart from being fat I'm currently now extremely pms-y, cranky and on the verge of stepping on people, hard.

IT's good to get that anger out once in a while.

NOVEMBER

Gasp! It's November!!!

Sorry Dhab haven't replied your tag because I haven't asked them what they want, haha, I can't think of anyhting I want considering I 'm soon joining you down under in the land of expensive products. Haha.

I'm planned to enter semi-retirement this November, but looks like jobs just keep popping up, and hence studying gets procrastinated once again. I'm not ashamed to say that I am SO going to be a nerd and work my ass off in Australia hitting the books and earning my keep part-timing because if I don't come back with a first class honours or anything else higher than that [i.e. grant or bursary etc], I would just be like a JP Morgan investment made by my mum.

I'm going to tell the Australian gah-ment that I promise to mug and mug and study hard hard and not be a waste of their Australian air. And I promise that after that I will not steal their jobs because my mum will drag me back to sunny Singapore to live/work for the rest of my life. Hence working my ass of the next 4 years would be good because I've heard plenty of people going overseas and not coming back because they can no longer deal with working hours which extend beyond 4.59. It's like training for a marathon.

And I just watched Avenue Q!! I shall review it tomorrow or else it'll be a very long post.

I feel that everyone should watch it, but before that watch youtube versions so that you won't miss out on the hilarious script because it'a a generally fast paced, compressed/compact musical. Aiya tell you all more tomoorow.